Ins and Outs on the Ups and Downs that include some Notes on the Cut, Thrust and Parry that is part of the Great Game--Sexual Politics. And encompassing too Single Men and Women and the Pleasures of Youth.

Sunday

(1) Sexual Phases of the Moon

Her heart changes, even if this—to her slightly guilty surprise—is only a little later.
Maybe, she thinks bitterly, a little later, he is having some phase of the moon. Some phase of the moon affecting his sex drive, lowering his sex drive.
A phase of the moon is it, or…
Or, maybe, on the other hand...On the other hand, the indefinable catch in his voice that very first time—out on the mountain in the morning—was never quite the same again, was it?
And perhaps this, in some important way, has something to do with what’s happened. The catch in his voice then had a certain something indefinable—a certain abject, Oh-God-I-can’t-help-myself, my-need-is-so-great, trapped-animal quality to it—that first morning. Anyway, making her glad not to be him. Not to be a man.